been bogged down w work, talks and other leisure activities like tv and the internet, that i've not really had much sleep lately. these 6 hour nites are killing me, think i'm falling sick again... :(

anyway, i really hope i can motivate myself to work harder in the near future or i'm dead... haha. i think i sort of have an idea as to where i wanna go, and what i wanna study now, its just figuring out the means now... ;) anyone willing to sponsor can contact me... :P but seriously, its gonna be tough, and finicial aid is not awarded easily... :(

ah well, hope it doesn't come down to applying for some shitty scholarship... :/

haha, was planning to sleep right after watching friends... but plans got derailed. am always on a high after watching FRIENDS! :D gosh, its been so great, so so great... wonder what will happen to my mondays once this show is gone. monday's usually bad for me, really like 'monday blues', and i need laughs like this to carry me through the rest of the week... :P

ahh, all the bitchy and snappy stuff i wanted to say is gone, so yr eyes are safe... :)

anyway, spent some time putting up those pictures on my blog... 'Goodbye Yellow Brick Road'... ;)

sighs, i hope i get all the VCDs of every episode somehow... :P anyway, the lovely song:

I'll Be There For You (Extended Theme for F.R.I.E.N.D.S)

So no one told you life was gonna be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
When it hasn't been your day.
your week your month or even your year,
But, I'll be there for you (When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you (Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you ('Cause you're there for me too)

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight,
you burned your breakfast so far, things are going great.
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these.
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought down to your knees.
And,I'll be there for you (When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you (Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you ('Cause you're there for me too)

No one could ever know me, no one could ever see me,
seems you're tyhe only one who knows, what it's like to be me.
Someone to face the day whit,make it through all the rest with.
Someone I'll always laugh whit. Even at the worst I'm best whit you.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month or even your year.

But,
I'll be there for you (When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you (Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you ('Cause you're there for me too)

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you ('Cause you're there for me too)

hey everyone!! not posted in a few days... haha, been sick... :(

kinda guessed on thurs tt i was gonna be sick on fri, was fine actually for the first part of the morning, until i started to feel sickish. was having headache, and i was sneezing a lot and having a sorethroat. tried to take a blueslip from edwin, but he didn't really believe me, but he still gave it to me in the end... :P

thank goodness he did. i can't imagine if i had to attend another prac... :/ went out for lunch, ate some spaghetti, and had to walk all the way to holland v for tt. bad mistake, the hot sun made me feel worse, and so did the spagehetti. so i was just stoning around in the library, freezing to death - even with hs' jacket! haha, quite pathetic.

and after school, somehow, i still went to yh's place to play tennis. now tt i look back, i must've been out of my mind... haha. was hardly able to run... :/ ah well, went back to yh's place, and somehow, i was freezing to death!?! tt's when i concluded tt i had a fever - took my temp, and it was 38.9... oops, so after dinner, quickly got my dad to bring me to the doctor, and after some medication, my fever was gone. since i felt better, i went to play dota, and slept at 2.  and the next morning, i had fever again. sighs. as a result, had to cancel an outing w nick... i stayed home the whole day, so boring... :( played some dota, and after the dota games, my fever came back again. seems like i can't exert myself without my fever coming back... :P

today, i'm feeling better... went to play tennis again w my internet friends... wasn't playing too well, but tt's understandable i guess... my reaction time has dropped by a lot haha. and my serve... errps... what serve again? ;)

anyway:

xq/yh bt yuan/cm 6-1 2-6 7-5 (or was it 8-6?)

quote of the day... "if you don't do it in this life, it would be as sad as dying a virgin..." -yihan...

ROTFL... haha, i found it quite amusing... :P

and sometimes, i wish certain pple would just shut up.

watched my taped friends today cuz i was playing com yesterday. well, it has been a must watch TV programme for me... amidst all the humor and sexual innuendo, it does leave a nice warm and fuzzy feeling... i wish monica and chandler weren't moving house though... haha. and yup, i'd so so so love to live in the same block as a few of my friends, with our apartments just a few steps away, and u are able to peer out of the window and see yr friend's house. and of course, a nice room mate. it'd be so fun and convenient! :P really hope it happens like after uni or sth... :)
 
anyway, so sian these days. dunno y, but though it all seems fun and cheery when u're w yr classmates and friends, when all quietens down, there's you, yr work and the computer, etc, and it just feels so empty. like, i dun wanna do any work, i just stone. i was set to start revising today, but just couldn't. maybe its cuz i really dunno where or how to start w bio cuz everything under sun could be tested. and some of them act as if we only take 1 subject n have time to search the library for every damn book and remember its contents as well. ha, unlike u teachers, we dun only dabble in 1 subject. i dunno, the bio department has killed almost all interest i had in the subject in sch, only when i'm reading for leisure do i have any interest now. think taking bio s instead of math or physics is gonna be such a huge mistake... sighs.

hmmm, this was my worst bio result in 2 years here... quite interesting... i dunno what to say.
 
anyway, the day was tiring... i scored a goal for my class in floorball! think it was the only only goal, or 1 of 2... so i feel useful! :D haha... but nick and zp both scored 2... :P
 
then after sch, went for lunch w yh, nick and weili! ate at marche... was absolutely yummy. they had such great lunchtime offers - 4.80 for pizzas, pasta and spring chicken... 3.00 for bread pudding. but stupid me ordered a 12.50 seafood mixed thingie... :rolleyes: but we had desert, spring chicken and pizza on top of our main course. was absolutely bursting after eating!!
 
went shopping w yh after tt... found many nice stuff around - shoes, clothes and all. wish i had struck some lottery... haha. then went to topman where there were all these offers. got a jumper for 23, when its price was originally 79! what a deal man... there were many many other cheap stuff there as well... jeans for 26, sun glasses for 6, etc. think i enjoy shopping w yh a lot cuz he has so many opinions... so he can criticise and tell me what doesn't look good, and what does too. it helps a lot, though i may not agree w him sometimes... :P
 
then had haircut... think its not tt good this time round... :( and tennis - which i was sucking cuz of tiredness...
 
hmmmm, had a good time playing DOTA with my classmates - allen, pin chuan, mingheng and jisam. we won 2 times! :) yay... but i've not done any work. this can't continue. tmr, yes i will REALLY start tmr... hopefully...

hmmm, i really gotta get my lazy ass down to doing more work and start studying for prelims. last time i heard, there's a lot to study for and v little time. weekend, was kinda relaxing... friday was slack as usual - haha. then sat, attended some talk at NUS, which i fell asleep for the last part. then went out w nick... had lunch at crystal jade! yummy... met audry w her dad, and she was scribbling something even whilst she was eating?!! met some RI teacher whom i had forgetten. dun think she taught me b4. we wanted to watch supersize me, but the earliest show at lido was 5.30, and since we didn't wanna walk to cini just to find another show at 5+... we decided to change movie. all the reviews i read for king arthur were bad, so, we decided to play it safe and watched mean girls. was a really amusing movie... haha, all the silly bimbos and crazy whores... and the fact there were a bunch of bimbos sitting in front of us made it all the more hilarious... :P met sida and alex at lido. they looked so good together. both are good looking and compliment each other...! :)
 
after tt, left to play tennis at yh's place... was praying the whole day tt it wouldn't rain, and thankfully it didn't... :) warming up was crap... the 4 of us were all missing like mad. was absolutely dismal! it kinda improved when we played some doubles though... results:
 
xq/cm beat yuan/yh 6-1
xq/yh beat yuan/cm 6-3 2-6 6-4
cm beat yuan 6-2
xq beat yuan 6-2
 
we scooted off to ri to play after 8 cuz someone else had booked the court. in fact, i liked it better there - the courts are better and the net's in better condition as well. sigh, RJ's facility are such a far cry from RI's... :(
 
after tt, we had usual other games and talk nonsense sessions at yh's place. was so tired after reaching home, and didn't do work - again.
 
today was just in a pensive mood. wondering what i'm gonna do for the rest of my life. somehow, i think i've rejected the idea of being a researcher... you've got to be so enthu abt yr work. and i know i'd lose interest after a while. i really wish tt i didn't have to work... bah. i dun even really wanna go into uni. it's like i'm studying now so i can do more studying in uni. wth, do sth i dun enjoy so i can do more it later in my life. all this is so meaningless... bah. really wondering what's all this for. y couldn't i have been born into a super rich family, then i wouldn't even have to worry abt working...

haha... blubster rocks so hard...!! :) thanks shan dear... it really d/ls so fast, and lets me find almost everything! i'm addicted to d/ling now, spent the whole nite d/ling, and didn't watch apprentice as a result... :( and girl, cheer up, dun give up... and no use brooding abt things. just gotta keep trying yeah? :)

went jogging today - gasp. but shit, i'm unfit man. stiches kill me... :'( bah.

and yeah, i was kinda irritated w jl today. the way he behaved, one would have thot he got full marks for a paper, or the highest in the sch or something... *rolleyes* well, maybe some pple just can't quite contain their excitment when they *finally* do well for 1 paper? haha... well, it must be killing him tt he tells everyone how hard he works and it doesn't show... *awww... sniffles*

k, tt was quite mean... but... its jl... :P

anyway, i guess all went according to plan - cuz i find it hard to motivate myself to mug anything at all. and i examined my results, usually 1 good, one not so good. so i started off the year deciding not to do too well, so i can do well this time, do not so well at prelims, then well at A's! only, i just realised a flaw... prelim results are impt!! haha. so its just as well tt though i did well in terms of grades this time, my score itself, in my opinion is not satisfactory. and it is my opinion, so please, let me have mine, and dun call me an ingrate. i've my own standards. well, its kinda amusing to think tt cm's average score is higher than my highest subject. haha... k, must psyche up to mug like - soon. its actually quite a lot now tt i think abt it... :P

hmmm, just finished making and editing (for the last time i hope) the class video. yay, i feel multi-talented... ;)

making the video made me feel a little nostalgic... to think in a few months time, all these laughter and fun we have will vanish. not sure if i'd like tt. our life is pretty carefree now even though we think there's lotsa work.

anyway, i think i'm actually developing a little attachment to the class, something i guess i never really thot i would. guess it takes some things to make u realise what's in front u... :)

just finished watching lotsa TV... which is basically what i've spent doing on my early day. waste of time. but anyway, Friends is great... love tt show! and eXtreme makeover... hmmm, really admire the pple who would do this. but then again, sometimes when u are desperate, i guess u'd do it. i dun think i'd ever resort to this, unless i'm like old, ugly and haggard and... desperate. and hopefully, tt wun happen to me... :p

anyways, weekend was wasted too, sighs, been slacking away. sat morning, went to yh's place for tennis. it happened to be raining, and we played Cranium! yes, i love exercising my brain... ;) thanks to my 'whore luck' in which i rolled 2 purples in a roll... which there is a 1/81 chance, me and yh won handily... :p

tennis was ok... except everyone was having DSD (dismal serving day)... i made few unforced errors off the ground, so i was happy with it... :)

cm bt yh 6-2
xq bt yuan 6-3

doubles wasn't completed, due to starving me wanting to eat. haha...

sunday was... interesting... ;) i actually went out to play tennis with a bunch of pple i didn't know personally. well, i've kinda known them for 2 years over the net, cuz i chat with them and we post at the same tennis board, and they've apparently met up and played a few times, so i decided to join them to see how other pple play. was fun... they were nice pple, and yeah, they certainly play differently than what i'm used to. and since i was playing well, it was fun!!

anyway, i certainly need to pick up on the work. sucks cuz i'm actually having trouble with my tuts... its been a long time since tt's happened. bad sign.

funny how sometimes, it just takes one person to bring it all down even though everyone else is bringing u joy. it just shows how impt tt person is.

i think i know why i had such a rough week... for 5 weeks before this, i had 2-11 sleeping patterns. then suddenly, the rigors of school hit me. and i'm exhausted and tired... plus some other things of course... :)

thank goodness, today ensured i would have a great weekend... :)

cabbed to biopolis with classmates to eat and back, but was still 20mins late for bio... haha. but what to do? 7 pple late, inge also can't do anything... :P gorged myself with food for lunch, then so much rushing after tt made me feel like puking.. haha. or maybe it was just the thot of bio pract? ;)

after tt went library to read w hs, cuz she was being weird... u know what i mean... ;) [u gotta be more decisive girl!!] anyway, i was reading this article in a mag abt gut bacteria, and then telling everyone who would listen abt it. so i shall say more! haha...

the number of bacteria in your gut is 10 times more than the number of cells u have in your body. 60% of the mass u shit out is gut bacteria. and then there are all kinds, those tt produce methane, hydrogen sulphide (toxic)... oh, and if u eat fried meat, your IQ increases. tt is, the bacteria convert IQ in fried meat to some 7???IQ which is carcinogenic. i bet if u told some aunty on the street, she'd change her child's diet to only fried meat. but tt'll only work in s'pore... ;) :sg-tard:

then surprise, yh was gonna have dinner w serene, and i joined in. had a reaaallly hard time deciding where to eat, but we sure had fun eating. haha, talked so much crap and laughed to death... and ate an earthquake! haha... which had water on it in the end cuz we were trying to make smoke. go figure. haha, all the xtreme tiredness i had was gone, it was like a high! :)

anyway... reached home late, and though i was actually gonna shower, but ended up in a conference call w yuan and cm... more high! was a highly amusing conversation... amazing the amount of bs tt goes round... opps.

wish i could have more days like tt to end off my jc life. would be perfect wouldn't it? well, minus some things tt happened of course...

i'm so so annoyed. there are pple, not person (so dun be so hard on yrself), who can be so insensitive with their 'comments'...

and there are others who are insensitive in a totally different way.

whatever it is, all these hurt, and make me feel sucky. and right now, its become rage i guess, and i'm becoming increasingly hostile towards everyone, even pple who dun deserve it...

yeah, i shouldn't have blown up at u, sorry. thanks for everything u've tried today in any case... i'll tell u abt sat...

screw... keeping stuff in like tt makes me feel bloated. haha...

how quickly moods can swing.

was feeling pissed off most of the day in school, cuz of certain things.
guess i felt better playing tennis and monopoly w cm and yuan...

but now, some pple have just pissed me off again... :@

ok... its beena while... busy with DOTA (a WC3 game) and just having fun and relaxing...

hope i didn't screw up too badly for CTs... was watching lotsa wimbledon and going on tennis forums during ct period... tennis frevor! haha...

its been great after CTs though... went to Spidey 2 and LAN... and stayed over at nick's place w zp to play more DOTA... played till 6am in the morning. crazy stuff man!! and the next day, i went to play tennis. was just exhausted... to bits or sth...

had a tennis tourny match on sat for a tourny organised by my condo... go soundly whooped. well, i think i could've just lost to anyone the way i was playing, so it didn't help my opponent was playing well. guess i should rest more b4 any matches next time... :P nevermind, i'm more motivated now... grrrrr!

finals of wimby was kinda not very good... wasn't pleased tt both andy and serena lost. bah, sucks. hope they... and esp venus bounce back! roddick's match was like one of wasted opportunities... he definitely had a v good chance to win each set, what with the breaks and all... and i am quite impressed with sharapova's intensity though... she is so determined and is absolutely concentrated in every point. she'll have a successful career.

been making my class vid... it turned out ok... not sure if others would like it. having problems w jl's portions cuz his footage comes with a song, so when i cut it up, it still has his songs... tried to lower the volume and all, hope it works. and hope my vid actually makes the mark, or it'd be a waste of my time and effort.